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April 10th, 2005]
Hey everyone! I've been pretty busy more recently; but that definatly doesn't mean I should ditch this journal ;) So yeah, these past few days/weeks (has it been THAT long since my last update?) have been spent a little more productive than others.

More recently, Craig bought an apartment and asked me to move in with him!! Ideally, I accepted. What girl in my position wouldn't? And yeah, it's been amazingly great so far minus me being lazy and procrasinating from actually un-packing. Anyway, he also bought me the CUTIEST dog EVER!! It's currently unnamed, so if anyone has any ideas...feel free to share :)

xox Manny

April 6th, 2005]
Not much of anything has happened latley. It really sucks, too. I've been trying to keep up with my summer reading...but let me tell you; it's definatly not an easy read. I've always thought I wouldn't have to worry about summer reading in the high school; but it's enforced even more.

So..staying on topic with my ever-so BORING life...nothing has happened. I haven't really talked to Emma latley, which I really should be doing more of. So Em, I'm sorry!!

Anyway, sidetracking from my rambling about being bored... an invite to the dot with yours truly is now offically requested!

March 26th, 2005]
[ mood | awake ]

Parents are pointless sometimes. I'm grateful for everything that they have provided me with, but at a point where I've gotten back on my feet, built up everything to ultimatley what I could consider as close as perfection as I'll ever be and where I can say I'm overly satisfied with my life...they wreck it again.

Degrassi is one of the best things that has ever happen to me.

Edit: My parents and I got into fight. You're typical fight. Perhaps this fight went particularly too far. I told my parents I was thinking of leaving them, I'm offically legal to be on my own soon, anyway, so for the time being I'm probably going to live with Craig. Before hand, I was planning on just running away. This edit really has no purpose...just clearing up a few things for those of you who didn't know, I really wanted to keep this private but...knowing our school that's quite impossible.


A trip down memmory lane [Tuesday,
March 22nd, 2005]
So Emma told me something that felt...so surreal. The pregnancy scare once lurked over mine, but now, on hers? Seems so indifferent from reality. Best of luck to her and Sean. I took time today to go through my photo album. Things changed so much, and I needed a reality check. This is what I found..

Photo AlbumCollapse )

March 21st, 2005]
So I guess I'm way do for another installment of the life of Manny Santos! I know you're all jumping with joy to know what my latest *scheme* has been. But I regret to tell you, it hasn't been much of anything, really.

Unless, of course, that wasn't counting yesterday. Apparently, it seems like Craig and Em are the only two people alive out there. HELLO! Where is everyone else ^_^! So, Craig and I decided to hang out. And it was tons of fun.

First, Craig and I went to the dot. We talked about alot of things...and it was nice. Then, we went outside and had a whole scene. LOL! The whole town must think we're the biggest freak showns. Then we headed over to the park, went on the swings, and talked about Universty. We're planning on going to the same schools, and then we talked about how we're going to buy crowns..and return and hand them down to the next line of Drama King and Queen (like ourselves)! May they wear their crows as proudly as us (:

Later I went over to his place and I helped babysit Ang. She's soo adorable. Gosh, it's been so long since I was, what? Eight years old or something. It feels SO long ago.

Anyway, I'm probably going to prepare for Summerland tonight! God Jesse McCartney is SO hot!

xox Manny

February 23rd, 2005]
Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, an apology, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say

because following the trends are suddenly cooler than actually updating my journal :P

( OOC: Check out dcs_home I fixed it up, and added some new stuff, soo...yeah :P )

February 7th, 2005]
Degrassi's semi formals are like cursed or something. Seriously. Nothing ever goes right. And considering the events of our most recent semi-formal, I am cursed. People call my cell phone in the middle of the night, "How about you take it all of?"

So, if you happened to miss the events of the semi-formal, Paige was still mad at me and she was really paranoid about her cheer incident and that I was wearing the same dress as her, so infront of the school (as i was about to accept my prize of prom queen) she ripped off my entire dress, exposing a close to nothing slip. So that just topped off my evening//sarcasm

Anyway, I guess we don't exactly hate eachother because we talked a little in the bathroom. But that's it!

And oh, sorry for my lack of updates.

January 31st, 2005]

I'm bored. Life is boring. I'm so blah. Today my house is an open house. Just walk in or whatever. My parents are out 'till 11 am tommrow. I have the place to myself ;]


January 27th, 2005]
[ mood | cranky ]

So it looks like I didn’t die after all, which may or may not be a good thing. To me it seems as though I’m looked upon as a plague of some sort to the school, because apparently I just can’t keep myself out of a fight; and for those of you who are completely out of the social loop (my dearest respects to you), Paige and I got into a fight. Not you’re normal catty hissy fit, a physical fight I guess…? According to Ellie, it probably wasn’t the most well fought fights, it being a more “girly” fight. And of course my weekend didn’t conduct well.


My mom’s constant lecture was ringing through my ears over, and over. She was so perfect, innocent, and overall boring. How I’m so utterly unlike her. She expects me to do everything in this perfect sequence, and all my actions should flow the way that she wants. I just want to have fun, you know? I know how to keep myself in order for the most part, but I can be spontaneous, and I am not going to end up like her, ever. A middle-aged housewife who barely every sees her husband and conducts everything so orderly and perfectly, is that the life I want to look forward to? Is that the life ANYONE wants to look forward to? So I desperately needed to get out of the house, and besides, I made plans with Darcy, Chante and Emma to have a complete spa-weekend at her house. No annoying boys (Hi, Chris, you’re a complete jerk), and in my case, no annoying parents there to reprimand your every actions. So, indulging into our spa weekend—the first thing we did was drink Ms. Nelson’s fabulous Mocktails and do face masks. Unfortunately, it turned out Chester was her neighbor. This was just splendid to learn because I was disfuigured, and he saw me! So Darcy, Chante and I ran inside. So then we started to make tie-dye t-shirts and Darcy and Chante were making them (or standing while Emma and I did), and they were fully clothed in nice attire. And yeah, so Chester and his three brothers (Who are named Chad and Chuck, lmao) were throwing a football. So I asked them to pass it to me and it flew in the tie-dye and soaked Emma’s clothes. So then we had a mini tie-dye war. Haha, it was fun. So later that night Emma planned a little revenge. We covered his tree with pads and tampons. It was insanely funny and wild, but of course I was a little nervous about the whole idea. So when Emma is just about to put the star on top of the tree, the cops pull up. Luckily, she escaped with a warning.


January 18th, 2005]
For once of in my life I’ve felt a sense of peace or whatever. There was no need to be concerned about the ramifications of my latest scheme, or worry about someone else’s well being. And it all seems like ideal tranquil, or some kind of alternate universe where the notion of drama was just a comparison to what you watch on Soap Operas. But of course it won’t stay for long, and some love triangle forms. It may be a surprise to some of you, but no, I’m not entwined in this, and the only purpose I serve is to console and give advice (which I’m not really good at but, whatever.) And I mean, I shouldn’t be worked up about it, but I guess the feeling is mutual, right? And my best friend, kidnap-ee and fellow cult member are all “in” this so…

Yeah I’ve said too much. It’s there “thing” and I think everyone is on better terms now ;].

IM me because I’m bored :x

January 9th, 2005]
I usually write like novels in my entries, now? They're one-liners.

All the luck in the world to Sean and Emma, and um...that's about it!

grr nothing to write about >:O

Survey For You & One Long Survey I filled out bleh.Collapse )

January 6th, 2005]

my update won't include anything more than:

Paige is a whore.

And if anyone is wondering why I am so down, think of it as this:

Manny messed up again.


January 4th, 2005]
[ mood | happy ]

School work = B.R.U.T.A.L. Kwan’s essay on how modern influences affects the work that is produced even more BRUTAL. As usual, I was chatting on AIM instead of actually getting something done. Craig invited me to go to the park and dot with him before he had to baby-sit Ang with Paige at 6. Of course, I agreed it was better than making constant excuses that I was doing my homework. So when he picked me up at my house my mom had to butt in. He was nervous, because he knew my parent’s didn’t like him that much. But my mom surprisingly didn’t go commando. It was nice to know that she didn’t hate him, unlike my dad. Kidding! I beat him to the swings, proving I am better ;]. Kidding! And we just hung out on the monkey bars...and yeah...update later!


January 2nd, 2005]
[ mood | confused ]

Guess like I’m due for another installment of my oh-so fabulous and drama free (yeah right) life. The other day Craig (aka: the King of Drama) and I (the Queen of Drama) decided it would be fun if we all went to the movies. So, we invited: Paige, Emma and Sean. We didn’t even get to decide on which movie to go to, but an auburn blaze began to creep up on us. And lucky us, some security guard locked the doors (he must have assumed the theater was empty) and we were locked in. We had no choice but to search for a window, and fast. In the process, (and I can thank my bad case of asthma for this) I fainted. Obviously, everything is alright now. I just had some black lungs, and I have to use this nebulizer thing. But it’s ok. Apparently, Sean broke open the window with his bare fists, and carried Emma out. And Craig carried Paige out. But thankfully, Craig came back for me :') I was taken to the hospital because I wasn’t breathing, and unfortunately, I MISSED EMMA AND SEAN KISS. Gosh, don’t these paramedics know that I should have stayed longer? Heheh.

So today I went to the dot, and later chilled at Alex’s house with like everyone. I didn’t stay long. But nothing really went on.

Call me later someone!



( four ) [Saturday,
January 1st, 2005]
[ mood | bitchy ]

First off I’d like to wish everyone a happy new year! Happy `05 ya’ll! Hopefully this year will be better than previous ones. Anyway, this week has been treating me really well. Craig and I have been talking a lot lately, and I’m really glad, too. He’s such a great person, despite our history; which shows how great he is. And smart, lol! And before I forget, congrats to you and Paige. Aren’t they just adorable? Ok, I’ll control my passionate um...side.

For the first part of the day I went to the Dot. I hung out with Sean and Emma. I sorta ditched them because the repair guy walked in. But everyone: I'm over him...

So last night was New Years Eve, and all would have thought Ms. Santos would have been partying `till she died, but unfortunately I spent my evening lounging and soaking up all the New Year’s spirit with my couch, TV, and computer. Later on that night, I invited a few people to come over to watch the ball drop. Paige, Craig, Sean and Ellie showed up. I talked to Sean most of the night, he left early to retreat to Emma’s house. That went...well, from what Emma told me, Anyway...

I’m going to go to the movies with Em, Paige, Craig and Sean.

Catch you all later!



December 31st, 2004]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Stolen from Em :)

I ____ Manny.
Manny is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Manny, I would_______.
I think Manny should______.
Manny needs_____.
I want to ______ Manny.
Someday Manny will_____.
Manny reminds me of___.
Without Manny _______.
Memories of Manny are________.
Worst thing about Manny is _________.
Best thing about Manny is _________.
I am ________ with Manny.

Other than that, I'm planning on chilling at the dot. Update about it later.

Yours Truly,



( two ) [Friday,
December 31st, 2004]
[ mood | calm ]

Overwhelming. Perhaps that wouldn’t be the best choice of words to describe Paige’s party, but deal. And also maybe I’m a bit obsessive with one-word sentences, but that is live-able too, eh? Anyway, from reading this you’re probably assuming that my day wasn’t the best, as it was.

So that morning I was talking to Sean, he was having doubts about coming back because he was totally hung up on Ellie. And she wasn’t too happy with him. Despite his protests, (well, they weren’t really protests…more like pointing out the cons about his move back) I kidnapped him and drove him to Paige’s party. Which I mean, wasn’t wrong, right?

Anyway, the party was a real drag, up until a few events. But what can I say? Degrassi was going through a spell of bad parties. This one was a total wake up call, though. So Ellie was accusing Sean of having feelings for me, and he got really pissed off and punched Paige’s wall. This all in all wasn’t so bad because the repair man was pretty good looking :).If you’re reading this, call me!

Well, Ellie was fuming, and Sean’s um...punch wasn’t helping the situation, either. So she had to vent, take out her steam, blah, blah, blah. The only possible option? Crashing into Manny’s car. Surprisingly enough, of I’m not that mad. I explained to my parents it was a hit and run, and they’re sending it to a mechanic tomorrow morning. I’m not pressing charges, so Ellie you don’t have to worry. I’ll pretend like it never happened. I just want you to know [Ellie], that Sean is NOT interested in me, and like wise, and maybe you should give him another shot...?


December 27th, 2004]
[ mood | blank ]

Shaken; it’s as if we’re all completely moved (to some extreme) by the shooting. And, in midst of it all, there I am, Manny Santos, with nothing to do but cry. Of course, I wasn’t really directly influenced by the shooting—I wasn’t a friend of Jimmy’s, nor Rick’s, but while in the middle of your favorite 5 o’clock runway show, you get interrupted by a newsbreak. Only to see your school the main attraction, and Rick, Jimmy and everyone else involved the main story of the hour. Ultimately, Toby was terrified. He witnessed someone dying, not something your average person goes through. None the less, the person who died was his friend. So, I took him to Rick’s funeral. Just because JT was being a total jerk, and denied having any relation to Toby. But in the end, JT pulled through, and showed up at the funeral, too. This totally gave JT some major points in my book ;).

Then there was Emma’s ordeal. She too, witnessed Rick dying, so there was a strong impact on her. She obviously didn’t handle it aswell as I expected, but she did her best, it was a difficult thing to deal with. And the aftermath of all of this hasn’t been great either, she knows what I mean.

So, Spinner and I became official a few weeks ago. And who would have guessed it? We broke up just recently. What he did to Jimmy was wrong, but I do respect his coming clean about it. I just didn’t see our relationship going anywhere.

So what can I say about my life before grade 10? My head is spinning, and there are tons of things I need to say. But I can’t, I don’t want to, I just want everything back to perfection. Perfection; what a word. I never got to realize what perfection meant and how lucky I was to actually own perfection (to some level). Grade 9 was a defiant slap in the face, I realized I couldn’t live in fantasy land and I had to face reality. But even then [in grade 9], I didn’t understand the concept of “reality”. I was a complete air head, and believed I could do what I want. Say what I want, think how I want, and change what I want. Change. Another word that if you ask anyone at DCS, they will immediately link it back to me. In grade 9, I went through a major change. I went from innocent little angel Manny Santos, to the hot and wild Manny Santos. I didn’t mean to hurt anyone in the process—but I know I did. All I can say about that is the attention, made my ego grow 10 times the size. Then the ordeal with Craig happened. I had always had a thing for Craig, being my first ever boyfriend and all. He had a special place. And one night at a party, Paige’s birthday to be exact, we sort of hooked up. He was single that day, that’s for sure. A couple of months later, I was impregnated with his baby. Simply said (I’m uneasy about talking about it) I had an abortion. I had my whole life ahead of me, and this, this baby was going to throw it all away. I know it was wrong, but I needed to. I was 14.

So now that everyone is fully aware of my life story, feel free to be added [to the story] and hit me up on AIM sometime: manny gets low.


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